I was asked to write down all the times in my life when I have been ‘Okay’. Here is my answer to said question.
I don’t remember a time when I wasn’t anxious at least at certain points in every year. I used to cry for no reason my whole life. I had depression in 2002 when I was in my first year of university. From 02-05 I had anxiety every month around my period. I thought it came with my period getting worse as I age. Then in 2006 I had constant panic attacks. I then got medication. I was sick 2008 for a month, from 2009 – 2014 I was okay about 80% of the time, and 2014-2016 okay 60% of the time.
I have no idea how the hell I am supposed to remember being ‘okay ‘ when I just learned that my super hyper is a manic episode. I am not pleased… I hope my meeting with my new social worker goes better than the last one.