My psychiatrist always starts every meeting with either, ‘you are looking well’, or ‘you are looking healthy’. He has never seen me healthy. He mistakes me being comfortable at his office as me being better. I am use to his office. I look like a corpse. Just because I am not currently crying doesn’t mean I am better it means I am dead inside at the moment. Just exhausted. I am not sure why I even go to him. He isn’t allowed to treat me. Just makes sure I have medication and don’t kill myself.