Tonight is my cousin’s birthday dinner. We are going to a nice restaurant so I had to cover up my black eyes. I used a nice khol eyeliner so my eyes look smokey and like they are supposed to be a bit darker. I can do wonders with good makeup. Wouldn’t even be able to tell that underneath is a black and purple mess. I miss wanting to do my hair and makeup, but I am just so damn sweaty and cry all the time. It will be fine as I am going to be surrounded by family at the dinner. So I will be as good as I get. I can’t go anywhere alone so if I need to pee someone has to escort me. I have to be in talking loud distance. You I know I love my cousin when I can go and do my hair and make-up so I look somewhat presentable.